i wanted to write this entry a lot earlier but i had no access to neocities for A Hot Minute . my laptop had to go for repair bc of touchpad issues ahh i missed her sorely!! had to use my ipad for everything which was kind of a hassle because it's not built for intensive work yes i love my laptop. anyway this whole spiel reminded me of this neocities project i've been following for a while (hi mei!) which focuses on machines and their places in our lives. yup so i will be supporting this campaign and will write a letter of appreciation to my laptop for all her hard work
school is fully hectic again and it feels so suffocating. i feel like i don't have time to think anymore!!! i only have myself to blame though - have been procrastinating on schoolwork and prioritising other things. i'd be fine with it except i still don't feel well rested physically and emotionally and ive been racking my brains to figure out Why . i think it mostly has to do with lack of time to focus on my thoughts and intellectual/creative endeavours? i'm physically active and have been spending time with people who give me energy though - definitely something i'm pretty grateful for.
also something ive been thinking about recently was how i need to be more humble. i realised im so susceptible to falling into the trap of criticising other people excessively and i don't think it's healthy plus i don't think it represents how i want to be as a person. i don't know? maybe it comes from a place of insecurity or narcissism im not sure but i do want to be a more constructive person. I think whatever people think and say of others is a very accurate reflection of their inner world and this is definitely true for myself as well. i should focus on my own growth and direct my energy to things that actually matter to me yup yup uh huh
maybe on a more lighthearted note ive rekindled my love for silly sound music again! this time it's aphex twin and boiler room remixes Let me just say i think aphex twin may be a 2025 top artist i can't lie . his stuff is so good it speaks to me and i love the aphex culture. would kill to go for an aphex concert ueueueu
i don't know if i have anything else to say? i had a great chinese new year by the way (i know it's not over yet!!) and honestly all things considered january treated me well. love and peace
- j